sometimes i

remember that day when we used to…

and then you said…

i just smiled and…

we were happy

 

i was reading through your letters when…

that letter you sent brought…

your thoughts were so…

and i sighed

 

i still…

but then again, it’s…

how do i find it? i think…

and it’s all in the past

 

but how could i…

when all i see is…

and all the memories…

and i stopped thinking

 

so what do i…

when i know that…

and you’re…

you have captured my thoughts

 

i fell like…

when i see you…

and hold myself back because…

but you’re already gone

 

so how do i…

when the pages are…

nothing to say but…

and sometimes i just…

this way

in my bed

there’s a space for you

come lay down

i am waiting

 

in my bed

i lie alone

so won’t you sleep

beside my lonely heart tonight

 

in my bed

my dreams, my thoughts

are all of you

i stay awake, because of you

 

in my bed

i see the night stars

waiting for morning

praying you’d stay

 

in my bed

where the sheets stay

undisturbed

under the covers, my pillow sits alone

 

in my bed

my heart awaits

for the night you’d say

let’s lie here, this way

 

 

keep on playing

here we go

just turned a new leaf

am given a blank sheet

and i ain’t looking back

never looking back

i have learned my lessons

kept the memories

will keep moving forward

nowhere else to go

and the morning looks bright

steps no longer unsure

no more hesitations

i’m not looking back

will look to the future

color it wildly

i’m on my way

and i’m never looking back

have done what needs to be done

will leave the drama behind

no more tears, i’ll come out smiling

tied all the loose ends

and i am never looking back

i’m here, and no one can stop me

this is my year

and i’m not looking back

 

midnight

where dreams awake

and reality slumbers

the moon smiles and the stars,

fiery like candles

burns away the remnants of day

night stands proud and the sun

hides behind the cloak of the blackest of skies

dawn still sleeps

 

midnight

i lay beside you

silent, like a shadow

i plant a kiss, yet you do not stir

outside, the wind whispers your name

and we are still

 

midnight

black, like satin, flowing freely

smooth like the still waters

cold like december

sleep slowly creeping, like my fingers combing your hair

 

midnight

you wake and smile

teeth like diamonds gleaming

in the dark

you take me

and i, you

 

midnight

the wolves howl

and i moan

deep. deeper into the darkness

silken kisses, masking the hunger

that night awakened

 

at midnight.

this ends, now

i no longer recognize your face

your smile ceased to be warm and inviting

your touch, cold like death

i shiver in fear whenever you come near

i no longer understand your language

the words you speak like shards of glass

wounding my heart

i bleed, like a dying soldier

begging for death to take me

but i see only you, standing over me

the dark shadow over my dark days

you have changed when i have not

i no longer trust you

i no longer love you

i no longer yearn to be in your arms

for there is no love to be found there

only hurt and pain and suffering

and tears

my feet, too tired to walk away

but my soul no longer wants to stay

this too shall pass, so they say

but this ends, now