cofiboi goes to cebu!

i’ve got my bags packed and i am so ready to go. i still have a few things i need to buy though, but those are little things. i’m crossing my fingers that the mall would still be open today, with the holy week and all.

my friend sent me an email the other day with a list of good places to eat in cebu. so i think i might be pigging out there. 🙂 works for me.

of course i will get that nice tan folks at work would be talking about. haha.

i’ll see you guys next week!

thank you note

all you said was hi

but it meant the world to me

your timing was perfect

like clockwork

but this time, unexpected

i wanted to put my arms around you

just to say thanks

but i held back, and smiled instead

you asked me how i was

i said i’m fine

your face wanted to say ‘okay’

but then you reached for my hand and said

‘tell me what’s wrong’

i almost cried, but tears failed me

we sat in silence, but you understood every unspoken word

somehow you felt i needed someone

i’m grateful that it’s you

thank you for keeping me company

because i needed that

i needed someone like you

you have to go

and i understand

when me meet again

i’ll be your ear

a dubliner finds a new home

my fellow trainers used to tease me about my station. they said that for a ‘bigger-than-life’ person like i am, my workstation looks the opposite. they said it lacked my personality.

well, i am not a sentimental person. in music yes, but when it comes to tangible things, i don’t get too attached (this sentence needs some serious editing). most of the time, my work station is swamped with stacks of paper, pens all over and coins, lots of ’em. my desk is pretty cluttered. i am a huge proponent of the chaos theory. 🙂

my in-out tray won’t fit my desk and frankly, i don’t know what to do with it since my outlook serves the same purpose. to give you an idea how my desk looks like, i took a picture of it (after i have removed all the clutter of course):

as you can see, my desk is quite cramped. i have two screens, and to my right is my desk phone. not much space for an in-out tray or for pictures even. i don’t even have a desk calendar! and if let’s say i’m handling a class, this desk would be really cluttered. sometimes i can’t even find my mouse!

and my desk has been that way for the longest time. i’m not a design guru and as long as my desk serves it’s purpose, i didn’t see the need to change it or make it fancy.

but now, since i have more time (more time than usual, anyway) on my hands, i was toying on the idea of having a minor desk makeover. 🙂

make it more interesting. and i had no idea where to start.

good thing a friend of mine just got back from ireland and he brought something with him: my very own luck of the irish, a dubliner whom i have named dubie (doo-by).

so i guess my desk is more interesting now. haha. 🙂

and i’ve got someone to talk to if there’s no one else around (creepy).  in terms of makeovers, that’s about it, i guess. i really don’t want my desk to look like the one my grade school teacher used to have: kitschy souvenirs, person of the year mug and a photo of someone.

i’m very superstitious, i believe that the very second i put a photo on my desk would spell the end of my relationship with that person. 🙂

for now, i’m happy having dubie around.

might as well

i’m so hyped up about this trip.

shopping’s almost done. all that’s left are pretty minor details and i can start packing.

i was supposed to go to cebu with a couple of friends. we were talking about leaving manila for a couple of days and just relax, forget about how crappy work is (isn’t it always?) since january.

planning for it was a lot of fun. we were so set on going to cebu. and i have been so excited ever since.

ans so we booked our tickets. but for some weird reason, things started to go downhill from there.

it started out with one of my closest friends backing out because she thought it was way out of her budget. i was like, this was a planned trip, expenses were always part of the discussions. but apparently, she’s the type who always hesitates and so, she ended up not coming. boo.

working in a call center, filing leaves is like winning a gold medal in the olympics. schedules suddenly change, you’re stuck with an unreasonable boss (come on, it’s vacation!) or you get dumped with work, it would take you days just to finish ’em off. it is easier for agents to file for leaves or PTOs. but for people like me, i’d rather compete in a decathlon. 🙂

but fortunately, i had a very understanding boss (i hope she gets to read this, haha). she approved my request. of course i had to tell her that we already had tickets, disapproving my request would be out of the question.;-)

i can’t help but feel that the whole universe is conspiring for this trip to get canceled. my leaves got approved but one of the people who was supposed to be with us, didn’t. so that’s another person off the list.

and then came on huge blow that almost made me back out: my co-conspirator slash friend found herself in a relationship. WTF. and it turns out that her new boyfriend is the possessive type. the boyfriend wanted my friend to stay in manila, even if she already had tickets. boo.

before all this, there were four of us. now, it’s just going to be me. sucks. they all flaked. after all the planning and shopping (yes, we went shopping right after we got the tickets), they’d back out.

i am still trying to make sense of their supposed reasons: no budget (right), new boyfriend (and so?) disapproved PTO (now this one i can understand). i mean after all the effort, they would just cancel? what’s up with that? and this is cebu for effin’s sake.

i mean if i only knew that they would back out, i would have gone to boracay or palawan or singapore even. but they wanted cebu, so we made plans. and i though i suck at planning.

oh well.

but i’m still going. it would be more expensive though, but what the heck, i’ll make sure i’m going to have fun. in fact, i already made plans meeting up with two (yes two) guys when i get there. teehee. 🙂

and taking pictures would be a chore. and i’m not going to bring a tripod. i’ll just ask people to take pictures of me. yes, i am a tourist.

i won’t be totally alone though. another friend would also be in cebu to celebrate her birthday. so i’d be there to crash her party. and another friend would also go there with his family. he said that if he would be showing me around.

so it’s not all that bad. 🙂

i’ll see you in cebu! yay!

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i just noticed i used ‘so’ a lot in this post. 🙂

yes ladies and gentlemen, i have a hickey

i can still smell you on my skin. that baby powder smell mixed with alcohol laden sweat. and i can still feel you, all of you, all over.

how did it start and how did we end up like this? holed up in some cheap motel, lights turned off and all that is heard are muffled groans. how did i end up sleeping beside you?

i might blame it all on the obscene amount of alcohol we consumed. or was it my loneliness that caught your attention? when you asked for a light, i could still remember how your hand grazed mine. and that’s when we started our little game.

you would always catch me stealing glances while i pretended to laugh at my friends’ stories. i caught you staring at me while i took a sip and lit my cigarette. then i smiled, because i knew those stolen moments, candid and real, were just foreplay. this would be a long night.

the band kept playing. i was into my umpteenth bottle when you finally decided to come over. you let your friend go home alone. and you asked if you could join us. my friend smiled a knowing smile. cofiboi’s back in the game.

i have almost forgotten how to play. but it is a wonderful thing to know that i still have it. that power to control situations to go my way. to flirt and have someone fall for it. it’s a rush i tell you.

we held hands. they’re singing beatles songs now. a couple of bottles more and we should be heading home. the weekend’s over, life needs to move along. but crazy drunks like we were. we wanted to put life on hold, and stay in this alcohol induced time warp. we both knew what was going to happen next.

it’s morning. i have to get up. i realized that life cannot be put on hold. you lay there, still dreaming i suppose. you stir, i hope i didn’t wake you. because if you did, it would be awkward. i want it to remain random, no need for conversations.

i leave you, and went on my way. we do not need to talk, because i don’t even know your name.