yes ladies and gentlemen, i have a hickey


i can still smell you on my skin. that baby powder smell mixed with alcohol laden sweat. and i can still feel you, all of you, all over.

how did it start and how did we end up like this? holed up in some cheap motel, lights turned off and all that is heard are muffled groans. how did i end up sleeping beside you?

i might blame it all on the obscene amount of alcohol we consumed. or was it my loneliness that caught your attention? when you asked for a light, i could still remember how your hand grazed mine. and that’s when we started our little game.

you would always catch me stealing glances while i pretended to laugh at my friends’ stories. i caught you staring at me while i took a sip and lit my cigarette. then i smiled, because i knew those stolen moments, candid and real, were just foreplay. this would be a long night.

the band kept playing. i was into my umpteenth bottle when you finally decided to come over. you let your friend go home alone. and you asked if you could join us. my friend smiled a knowing smile. cofiboi’s back in the game.

i have almost forgotten how to play. but it is a wonderful thing to know that i still have it. that power to control situations to go my way. to flirt and have someone fall for it. it’s a rush i tell you.

we held hands. they’re singing beatles songs now. a couple of bottles more and we should be heading home. the weekend’s over, life needs to move along. but crazy drunks like we were. we wanted to put life on hold, and stay in this alcohol induced time warp. we both knew what was going to happen next.

it’s morning. i have to get up. i realized that life cannot be put on hold. you lay there, still dreaming i suppose. you stir, i hope i didn’t wake you. because if you did, it would be awkward. i want it to remain random, no need for conversations.

i leave you, and went on my way. we do not need to talk, because i don’t even know your name.

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20 thoughts on “yes ladies and gentlemen, i have a hickey

  1. “or was it my loneliness that caught your attention?”

    “The heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure. Who can understand it?” -Jeremiah 17:9 (NIV)

    minsan.. hindi natin kailangang makinig sa ating mga puso..

    masyadong sinungaling ito upang sundin…

    “Above all else, guard your heart,
    for it is the wellspring of life.” -Proverbs 4:23(NIV)

    ang pinaka tamang paraan ay bantayan lamang ito..

    Lubos kong naiintindihan ang nararamdaman mo, dahil bagamat may maskara, ay tao din ako…

    Magandang araw. Unang beses ko sa Blog mo, naway hindi mo ako i block.

    -Animsè (Ang maskarang kulay Lila.)

  2. Igan na impressed ako sa photo na ginamit mo sa iyong headfront page. Nag replika kung ano ang totoong buhay ngayon. Cool site. Napadaan lang. Musta?

  3. I was kilig by this. LOL. 😉 Ikaw ha, cofiboi. 😉

    I am soooo bad at encounters. Really. I swear, I get all jittery and nervous. Pero if I’m drunk, I’m brave. LOL. Wala bang details jan? LOL. 😉

    1. haha! hmmm…. the details are unimportant. teehee. 🙂
      anway, i was just doing a ‘market-check’ (after all, i have been single for close to six months) that’s why i just wanted it to be as random as possible. 🙂

  4. one night stands.. i love it and i miss it.

    I read an erotic book with almost the same language. I love the wordplay.

    1. well for starters, you’re a very good writer and i really love the way you write.
      kaya, you making a comment on my work means a lot. 🙂
      and yes, i am a fan. 🙂

  5. Sinful! Lightnign and thuder with witches cackling in the tower and all that jazz!!!

    Nice read Jed, glad you had some fun after a long while and glad you are still able to pull it off. I dont I ever was able to get away with it (I usually end up in a relationship by morning ugh, bad memories of 1 week relationships *erase* *erase*)

    Enjoy life while you can when you can, hurt no one and love yourself – I think that should be my epitapth (wait, I’m not dying yet!)

      1. didn’t notice them. 🙂
        i posted this last year, when things were more exciting for me.

        sadly, this year’s a drag- relationships-wise.

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