i think the best thing to do is say goodbye.
i was on my way to work earlier and i passed by a billboard that advertised this huge star making the move from one telecom network to another. the ad and the move was not really the earth-shaking kind, i mean, as long as the competition would give someone better, then why not jump ship, right?
i’ve been confused lately, and i have written that i’m at a crossroads and i’m still figuring out what to do and where to go. i’m still at that crossing however i now have a better road map.
people leave for a lot of reasons; and the bottom line is that people want something better. because the truth is, there would always be something and someone better.
though i am not yet ready to leave, i am ready to let go. call it streamlining. i am willing to let go of all the baggages i carry to make room for new ones. how could something better come along if your hands are full and you’ve got so much on your plate? i don’t want to be greedy. and like everyone else, i want to be happy.
as the year draws to a close, here are a couple of things in my life that i am ready to let go of; my loose ends, so to speak.
i am cutting myself free from superficial friendships and malfunctioning relationships. i have no room for people who offer face-value friendships but stab you in the back, take you for granted or leave you when things get rough. i know i know, the last part was a bit immature, but i have always believed that friendships are more than just conversations over coffee, parties, drunken confessions, private jokes, and secret keeping. friendships, like all other human relationships, should be anchored on trust. so there, i might say goodbye to a couple of friends just because i don’t need their drama and i am tired of being their doormat.
i am putting an end to relationships that always linger in the gray area. it’s either you want me or you don’t. there’s no use of waiting for someone who already let go. the world’s too big and with six billion people, somebody is bound to find someone. like i said, how can someone better come along if you’ve got no room for that person because you are still hoping and holding on for someone who might not even come back? it’s just a waste of time.
on to other things, lest i get too emotional.
i found life more tolerable when i stopped complaining. it’s not that i have settled for something less, i just figured out that if i don’t like what’s on my plate right now, why not chuck it and head for the buffet table again, right?
“i just figured out that if i don’t like what’s on my plate right now, why not chuck it and head for the buffet table again, right?”
i am doing something about it. slowly, with calculated steps, i am heading back to the buffet and the first course is turning out mighty fine indeed.
this is not my new year’s resolution, i am actually changing stuff and moving things around. i’m cutting loose ends- not just tying them up. and if i get to find a bigger torch, i am ready to burn bridges.